Tuesday, December 16, 2003
there are more of them outhere.
never thought that i am surrounded with people with almost similar scars as mine.
on their mind, on their heart, on their soul, on their being.never thought that
we could share so much anger and pain that deep even finding the best lines
to describe them. we're no longer in tears talking about those moments of
betrayal. we're no longer trying to find a way how to revenge to those people
who gave us this pain. but we do still try to heal even after all this time and so
many new love come to our lifes today. we're not trying to forget about them
because they'll never leave us alone anyway. we're not trying to act as if we're
allright either after what happened. we're just move on with our lifes and try to
be strong enough not to let that thing happened again to us. that's all.
and yes, that's one of the most difficult part of this whole healing process:)
never thought that i am surrounded with people with almost similar scars as mine.
on their mind, on their heart, on their soul, on their being.never thought that
we could share so much anger and pain that deep even finding the best lines
to describe them. we're no longer in tears talking about those moments of
betrayal. we're no longer trying to find a way how to revenge to those people
who gave us this pain. but we do still try to heal even after all this time and so
many new love come to our lifes today. we're not trying to forget about them
because they'll never leave us alone anyway. we're not trying to act as if we're
allright either after what happened. we're just move on with our lifes and try to
be strong enough not to let that thing happened again to us. that's all.
and yes, that's one of the most difficult part of this whole healing process:)
Monday, December 15, 2003
Saddam Captured
Me:I am glad Saddam was captured.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:So am I! It proves Bush was right to invade Iraq!
Me:Well, it doesn't change the fact he lied to get us into a war. It doesn't change the fact that thousands of innocent Iraqis have died, and will continue to die thanks to unexploded cluster bombs and the siege mentality of our troops, who are likely to shoot first and ask questions later because of the poor security situation in Iraq.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:Why do you love Saddam? You'd rather see him still in power wouldn't you?
Me:No, I'm glad he's gone. But the same day, one of our soldiers was killed by a bomb. And a car bomb exploded west of Baghdad, killing 17 and wounding 33.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:Why do you hate our troops? Why do you want to see them die?
Me:I don't want them to die. I want them to come home safe. But it doesn't change the fact that Bush lied. There were no WMD, there were no nuclear weapons.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:You hate America! You're a Saddam-lover!
Me:*sigh* No, I don't and no I'm not. I love this country. I've spent a lot of time abroad so I actually know something about life outside America. I love my country but it's perfectly patriotic to criticize it. You do know that there was no connection between Saddam and al-Qaeda?
Flying Monkey right-winger:You love dictators!
Me:I'm getting a little tired of this. Where's the proof that there was any connection between Saddam and al-Qaeda? Mohammed Atta never met with Iraqi agents in Prague. Abu Nidal was not trained by Iraqi intelligence. That's all they ever had and it's been debunked.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Why do you hate America?
Me:You're sounding like a broken record. Do you realize that this isn't the end of the resistance in Iraq? Saddam was hiding in a hole. He wasn't directing the resistance. He was, at most, a symbol to them. The resistance is coming from foreigners from Iran and Syria and elsewhere coming into Iraq, from Baathists, and from al-Qaeda sympathizers who want to take their shot at America, now that we are in their backyard.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Ah-HA! So there WAS a connection between al-Qaeda and Iraq!
Me:No, not until we invaded Iraq. Just like the war critics said, the invasion caused more terrorism and violence. It created terrorists.
Flying Monkey right-winger:See? You hate our troops! You are giving aid and comfort to the enemy!
Me:By observing facts? I didn't know we America-hating liberals had so much power! I wonder why we don't control the White House and Congress by now, if we can accomplish so much with just our mere thoughts.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Our troops are putting their lives on the line! You owe it to them to support them!
Me:And I do support them. It's a pity Bush doesn't. It's a pity that they are fighting and dying so Bush's cronies can engage in war profiteering. You DO know that Halliburton has been gouging the government over the price of gasoline for Iraqis, right? You DO know he hasn't visited any of our wounded troops, hasn't gone to a single funeral for a dead soldier, and the Pentagon has barred the media from covering the return of the caskets of dead soldiers to Dover AFB?
Flying Monkey right-winger:We have to keep our morale up in order to support our troops!
Me:By ignoring the war dead? By ignoring the war injured?
Flying Monkey right-winger:You want them to die! The more that die, the happier you are!
Me:Of course not. I think they are deserving of proper respect, not being swept under the rug.
Flying Monkey right-winger:You want the economy to do poorly too!
Me:Well, speaking of that, the capture of Saddam doesn't change the fact that Bush has spent us deeply into debt and run the economy in the ditch and given the rich an enormous cash advance on our national credit card.
Flying Monkey right-winger:So you want higher taxes! Tax-and-spend Democrat!
Me:Hardly. I want responsible government. If you are going to cut taxes, fine. But cut government spending too. And if you're going to give the wealthy the vast majority of the benefits of a tax cut, don't lie to us and tell us that the middle class and the poor are getting a great deal. They didn't.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Class warfare!
Me:Class warfare is robbing from the poor and middle class, and giving to the rich. Class warfare is enabling Enron to swindle thousands out of their life savings, and yet Ken Lay is a free man. Rush Limbaugh is a free man. But Tommy Chong is in jail for selling glass. Courtney Love got thrown in jail for possession of the same drugs Rush was abusing.
Look: one last time: It's great Saddam was captured. It's a great day for Iraqis. But it doesn't change the fact that the Bush regime failed to plan for the aftermath of the fall of Baghdad. We squandered a precious opportunity in the days after that, to give Iraqis confidence that we were there to free them and make their lives better. Bush's cronies are engaging in shameless war profiteering. I don't think it's right that our troops should be dying for Halliburton's bottom line. It doesn't change the fact that Bush and his regime lied like crazy to get us into the war. It doesn't change the fact that resistance will continue. It doesn't change the fact this was an imperial war. It doesn't change the fact that the reconstruction and transition to Iraqi rule is going poorly. There will likely be a civil war in Iraq. It doesn't change the fact that Bush has spent us deeply into debt and mismanaged the economy. It doesn't change the fact that Bush has alienated our allies.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Why do you hate America so much? Why do you hate our troops so much? Why do you love Saddam and dictators so much?
Me:Oh, I give up. Go back to listening to Rush and watching Fox News. You're hopeless.
-Taken from www.liberalmediaconspiracy.blogspot.com
Me:I am glad Saddam was captured.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:So am I! It proves Bush was right to invade Iraq!
Me:Well, it doesn't change the fact he lied to get us into a war. It doesn't change the fact that thousands of innocent Iraqis have died, and will continue to die thanks to unexploded cluster bombs and the siege mentality of our troops, who are likely to shoot first and ask questions later because of the poor security situation in Iraq.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:Why do you love Saddam? You'd rather see him still in power wouldn't you?
Me:No, I'm glad he's gone. But the same day, one of our soldiers was killed by a bomb. And a car bomb exploded west of Baghdad, killing 17 and wounding 33.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:Why do you hate our troops? Why do you want to see them die?
Me:I don't want them to die. I want them to come home safe. But it doesn't change the fact that Bush lied. There were no WMD, there were no nuclear weapons.
Flying Monkey Right-winger:You hate America! You're a Saddam-lover!
Me:*sigh* No, I don't and no I'm not. I love this country. I've spent a lot of time abroad so I actually know something about life outside America. I love my country but it's perfectly patriotic to criticize it. You do know that there was no connection between Saddam and al-Qaeda?
Flying Monkey right-winger:You love dictators!
Me:I'm getting a little tired of this. Where's the proof that there was any connection between Saddam and al-Qaeda? Mohammed Atta never met with Iraqi agents in Prague. Abu Nidal was not trained by Iraqi intelligence. That's all they ever had and it's been debunked.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Why do you hate America?
Me:You're sounding like a broken record. Do you realize that this isn't the end of the resistance in Iraq? Saddam was hiding in a hole. He wasn't directing the resistance. He was, at most, a symbol to them. The resistance is coming from foreigners from Iran and Syria and elsewhere coming into Iraq, from Baathists, and from al-Qaeda sympathizers who want to take their shot at America, now that we are in their backyard.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Ah-HA! So there WAS a connection between al-Qaeda and Iraq!
Me:No, not until we invaded Iraq. Just like the war critics said, the invasion caused more terrorism and violence. It created terrorists.
Flying Monkey right-winger:See? You hate our troops! You are giving aid and comfort to the enemy!
Me:By observing facts? I didn't know we America-hating liberals had so much power! I wonder why we don't control the White House and Congress by now, if we can accomplish so much with just our mere thoughts.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Our troops are putting their lives on the line! You owe it to them to support them!
Me:And I do support them. It's a pity Bush doesn't. It's a pity that they are fighting and dying so Bush's cronies can engage in war profiteering. You DO know that Halliburton has been gouging the government over the price of gasoline for Iraqis, right? You DO know he hasn't visited any of our wounded troops, hasn't gone to a single funeral for a dead soldier, and the Pentagon has barred the media from covering the return of the caskets of dead soldiers to Dover AFB?
Flying Monkey right-winger:We have to keep our morale up in order to support our troops!
Me:By ignoring the war dead? By ignoring the war injured?
Flying Monkey right-winger:You want them to die! The more that die, the happier you are!
Me:Of course not. I think they are deserving of proper respect, not being swept under the rug.
Flying Monkey right-winger:You want the economy to do poorly too!
Me:Well, speaking of that, the capture of Saddam doesn't change the fact that Bush has spent us deeply into debt and run the economy in the ditch and given the rich an enormous cash advance on our national credit card.
Flying Monkey right-winger:So you want higher taxes! Tax-and-spend Democrat!
Me:Hardly. I want responsible government. If you are going to cut taxes, fine. But cut government spending too. And if you're going to give the wealthy the vast majority of the benefits of a tax cut, don't lie to us and tell us that the middle class and the poor are getting a great deal. They didn't.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Class warfare!
Me:Class warfare is robbing from the poor and middle class, and giving to the rich. Class warfare is enabling Enron to swindle thousands out of their life savings, and yet Ken Lay is a free man. Rush Limbaugh is a free man. But Tommy Chong is in jail for selling glass. Courtney Love got thrown in jail for possession of the same drugs Rush was abusing.
Look: one last time: It's great Saddam was captured. It's a great day for Iraqis. But it doesn't change the fact that the Bush regime failed to plan for the aftermath of the fall of Baghdad. We squandered a precious opportunity in the days after that, to give Iraqis confidence that we were there to free them and make their lives better. Bush's cronies are engaging in shameless war profiteering. I don't think it's right that our troops should be dying for Halliburton's bottom line. It doesn't change the fact that Bush and his regime lied like crazy to get us into the war. It doesn't change the fact that resistance will continue. It doesn't change the fact this was an imperial war. It doesn't change the fact that the reconstruction and transition to Iraqi rule is going poorly. There will likely be a civil war in Iraq. It doesn't change the fact that Bush has spent us deeply into debt and mismanaged the economy. It doesn't change the fact that Bush has alienated our allies.
Flying Monkey right-winger:Why do you hate America so much? Why do you hate our troops so much? Why do you love Saddam and dictators so much?
Me:Oh, I give up. Go back to listening to Rush and watching Fox News. You're hopeless.
-Taken from www.liberalmediaconspiracy.blogspot.com
Friday, December 12, 2003
a trash gig tomorrow. a jingle recording tonight. a bunch of friends from bandung
arrival today.a catalogue to be finished today.a shitty job chasing after me since this morning.a lovely lovely boyfriend by my side.a house to be clean and paint since three months ago. a library and distro to be finished as soon as possible. a gorgeous two sisters.a wonderful parents. always some zines and books to be finished. always some ideas to be explored. lots and lots of beautiful friends. some money to be saved. an iBook on the way soon. an amazing feeling of life called Happiness inside and of course one and only thing called DOG up there;)
And they say Life sucks? at least not at this second of my life:)
arrival today.a catalogue to be finished today.a shitty job chasing after me since this morning.a lovely lovely boyfriend by my side.a house to be clean and paint since three months ago. a library and distro to be finished as soon as possible. a gorgeous two sisters.a wonderful parents. always some zines and books to be finished. always some ideas to be explored. lots and lots of beautiful friends. some money to be saved. an iBook on the way soon. an amazing feeling of life called Happiness inside and of course one and only thing called DOG up there;)
And they say Life sucks? at least not at this second of my life:)
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
is an organization of anarchists an oxymoron?
I smile so big reading that line from a guy's blog today. Just
when he reminds me of this line,
Thank God, I'm an atheist!
And funny thing is, some people will take those lines seriously
while others are just having fun with them. While I used to do both,
because I want have more fun (of course!)Hehehe!
Have you ever been in love with an atheist by the way?
I have, twice. And trust me, they could more human than any religious
human being you ever meet:)
I smile so big reading that line from a guy's blog today. Just
when he reminds me of this line,
Thank God, I'm an atheist!
And funny thing is, some people will take those lines seriously
while others are just having fun with them. While I used to do both,
because I want have more fun (of course!)Hehehe!
Have you ever been in love with an atheist by the way?
I have, twice. And trust me, they could more human than any religious
human being you ever meet:)
Monday, December 01, 2003
i never actually know my real father.
our relationship based on a distance and my mother's pain towards him.
so no matter how hard I try to love him as my father as simple as anyone
I know about loving their father, I always end up not knowing him at all.
at least I know where's his latest office or what kind of job that he has,
but that's all. I know he has a new family, but I don't think we'll ever meet
anyway. So, I always have this mediocre relationship with my real father as
much as with my step father. They both has become such a incomplete figure
in my life. And do I feel sad about that fact?
Not really, actually. I used to live with my mom as the center of my universe
(before I know someone called 'Lover' or 'God';) since the day I was born, so I
get along fine with my life that way. Seriously, I never even envy other people
with their so called 'complete family', because mine is pretty much compact
and cozy enough to me. Weird thing is...I desperately envy other girl who has
a elder brother! Hehehee!
Why? Maybe because I'm the eldest from three girls and spoil brat too;)
our relationship based on a distance and my mother's pain towards him.
so no matter how hard I try to love him as my father as simple as anyone
I know about loving their father, I always end up not knowing him at all.
at least I know where's his latest office or what kind of job that he has,
but that's all. I know he has a new family, but I don't think we'll ever meet
anyway. So, I always have this mediocre relationship with my real father as
much as with my step father. They both has become such a incomplete figure
in my life. And do I feel sad about that fact?
Not really, actually. I used to live with my mom as the center of my universe
(before I know someone called 'Lover' or 'God';) since the day I was born, so I
get along fine with my life that way. Seriously, I never even envy other people
with their so called 'complete family', because mine is pretty much compact
and cozy enough to me. Weird thing is...I desperately envy other girl who has
a elder brother! Hehehee!
Why? Maybe because I'm the eldest from three girls and spoil brat too;)
so many things to tell, so lazy to start writing.
(i'm going to have my own iBook soon!Alhamdulillah:)
(i'm going to have my own iBook soon!Alhamdulillah:)
