Monday, September 29, 2003
Aku perempuan dan bukan untuk dipilih..aku memilih:)
A girlfriend of mine just having her first baby. Considering her young age and her way of life, I definetely damn proud of the way she takes a full responsibility of her choices in life. Congrats, Diet!
And finally being moving out of the house after so many years I really enjoy every second of being free to decide whether I should've gone home by midnight or even not going home at all:D
What is so great about living on your own?
You could eat macaroni with bare fingers and a towel only;)
Being in that big house all by myself and NOT HAVING ANY SINGLE CURTAIN at their windows, made me feels so restless since two nights ago. Mind my sickness and exhaustion, since I feel like I'm sleeping in the middle of football yard! Hehehe!
For the first time in my life I have to be my mom, my dad dan my maids in my own house and it's surely not as difficult as I thought it would be.Alhamdulillah:)
Oh, and for you that has been the biggest support of my moving out from the house..I love you, and please don't move out from my heart so fast ya!:D
A girlfriend of mine just having her first baby. Considering her young age and her way of life, I definetely damn proud of the way she takes a full responsibility of her choices in life. Congrats, Diet!
And finally being moving out of the house after so many years I really enjoy every second of being free to decide whether I should've gone home by midnight or even not going home at all:D
What is so great about living on your own?
You could eat macaroni with bare fingers and a towel only;)
Being in that big house all by myself and NOT HAVING ANY SINGLE CURTAIN at their windows, made me feels so restless since two nights ago. Mind my sickness and exhaustion, since I feel like I'm sleeping in the middle of football yard! Hehehe!
For the first time in my life I have to be my mom, my dad dan my maids in my own house and it's surely not as difficult as I thought it would be.Alhamdulillah:)
Oh, and for you that has been the biggest support of my moving out from the house..I love you, and please don't move out from my heart so fast ya!:D
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Almost midnight, Saturday night.
Dia menatap perempuan itu lama sekali. Ada senyum
yang bukan tersungging di bibirnya, namun di hatinya.
Ada suara yang keluar berbisik yang bukan dari mulutnya, namun hatinya. Ada....'tidak, aku tak ingin merubah apapun. Aku hanya sedang menikmati pertemuan kita....'
Dan perempuan itu hanya tertunduk sambil berkata dalam hatinya,
'Kalau boleh, sekali ini saya tidak ingin Cinta ada diantara saya dan dia. Kalau boleh, saya ingin pendar hangat kedua matanya tak hanya untuk malam ini atau beberapa hari ke depan, namun selamanya. Saya tidak mengingikan dia untuk menginginkan saya...saya hanya ingin dia ada di hidup saya, selama dia mau. Itu saja..'
Kata siapa dijatuh cintai itu selalu menyenangkan?
Dia menatap perempuan itu lama sekali. Ada senyum
yang bukan tersungging di bibirnya, namun di hatinya.
Ada suara yang keluar berbisik yang bukan dari mulutnya, namun hatinya. Ada....'tidak, aku tak ingin merubah apapun. Aku hanya sedang menikmati pertemuan kita....'
Dan perempuan itu hanya tertunduk sambil berkata dalam hatinya,
'Kalau boleh, sekali ini saya tidak ingin Cinta ada diantara saya dan dia. Kalau boleh, saya ingin pendar hangat kedua matanya tak hanya untuk malam ini atau beberapa hari ke depan, namun selamanya. Saya tidak mengingikan dia untuk menginginkan saya...saya hanya ingin dia ada di hidup saya, selama dia mau. Itu saja..'
Kata siapa dijatuh cintai itu selalu menyenangkan?
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
You are so BEAUTIFUL!
You're curly long black hair that falls on your shoulder.
You're soothing black pearly eyes.
You're quiet smile.
You're funny comments on things.
You're smart comments on things that you disagree with.
You're thin lips that made you sounds like an old man.
You're soft spoken way of talking except when you are in front of a forum.
You're cool way of putting your hair in the back when you're trying to sleep in a train.
You're lazy yet excited mood.
You're....girlfriend is definitely a lucky person:)
You're curly long black hair that falls on your shoulder.
You're soothing black pearly eyes.
You're quiet smile.
You're funny comments on things.
You're smart comments on things that you disagree with.
You're thin lips that made you sounds like an old man.
You're soft spoken way of talking except when you are in front of a forum.
You're cool way of putting your hair in the back when you're trying to sleep in a train.
You're lazy yet excited mood.
You're....girlfriend is definitely a lucky person:)
There should be one hell of an exciting workshop,
There should be one hell of an exciting discussion,
and there should be one hell of a romantic weekend also...
But they all replaced by those new acquitances, exhaustion,pissed, sickness, hard rains,cold hands and feet under the blanket...warm fuzzy moments of human's chemistry, plus heartache.
See?
Never let yourself expecting anything if you're not ready to get more out of things in life:)
-for all those beautiful creatures at Malang-
There should be one hell of an exciting discussion,
and there should be one hell of a romantic weekend also...
But they all replaced by those new acquitances, exhaustion,pissed, sickness, hard rains,cold hands and feet under the blanket...warm fuzzy moments of human's chemistry, plus heartache.
See?
Never let yourself expecting anything if you're not ready to get more out of things in life:)
-for all those beautiful creatures at Malang-
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Untuk Benci,
Saya masih percaya tak mungkin saya bisa mencintai
dengan cara yang persis sama untuk dua orang yang berbeda, bahkan setiap detak irama nafas saya saat bersama kamu dulu dan dia sekarang pasti memainkan musik yang berbeda.
Saya masih percaya tak mungkin saya mendapatkan semua yang sudah kamu hilangkan dulu dari saya walaupun cuma sebuah tanya apa kabar atau ucapan selamat tidur di tengah malam menjelang pagi yang tak mungkin diucapkan persis sama oleh dua orang yang berbeda walaupun kata katanya sama sekalipun.
Saya masih percaya semua yang saya berikan dahulu tak pernah bisa saya berikan lagi pada orang lain karena saya memberi yang saya punya waktu itu, dan sekarang apa yang saya punya saya berikan padanya.
Saya masih percaya saya tak akan pernah bisa mengusir kamu dari dalam diri saya dalam bentuk apapun itu, karena kamu sendiri yang menciptakan mantra itu saat dia datang ke hidup saya dan menawarkan cintanya dengan canda tawa.
Saya masih percaya setiap manusia berhak berbahagia walau dengan cara dan atas nama apapun termasuk Cinta dan dirinya sendiri, bahkan mungkin untuk diri saya sendiri yang tak pernah percaya kalau Bahagia itu memang ada.
Saya masih percaya kalau setiap kepercayaan saya atas hidup dan diri saya sendiri yang sudah kamu hancurkan saat saya memberikan semuanya kepada kamu dulu itu tetap tak ternilai harganya bahkan setelah semuanya yang terjadi antara kamu dan saya, dia dan kamu, saya dan dia, juga Cinta saya hari ini.
Saya masih percaya hidup adalah tentang memilih dan mengambil semua konsekuensi dari pilihan yang diambil manusia, bahkan saat pilihan itu sendiri yang ternyata menghancurkan diri mereka sendiri.
Saya masih percaya saya layak mendapatkan sebuah kejujuran atas semua kepercayaan saya atas manusia, hidup dan Tuhan saya sendiri. Karenanya saat kamu mengatasnamakan pengkhianatan kamu atas apapun itu, saya tidak pernah mau menerimanya hingga hari ini karena saya merasa saya layak dihormati atas kepercayaan saya akan rasa percaya dan cinta itu sendiri.
...Dan kalau memang saya diberi pilihan untuk menyayangi atau membenci kamu hingga saya mati, maka saya tidak memilih keduanya karena kamu tak pernah lagi ada dalam kehidupan saya sejak hari itu...
Kamu bukan masa lalu, masa sekarang dan semoga bukan masa depan saya.
Terimakasih untuk membuat Benci ini nyata:)
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume IV)
Saya masih percaya tak mungkin saya bisa mencintai
dengan cara yang persis sama untuk dua orang yang berbeda, bahkan setiap detak irama nafas saya saat bersama kamu dulu dan dia sekarang pasti memainkan musik yang berbeda.
Saya masih percaya tak mungkin saya mendapatkan semua yang sudah kamu hilangkan dulu dari saya walaupun cuma sebuah tanya apa kabar atau ucapan selamat tidur di tengah malam menjelang pagi yang tak mungkin diucapkan persis sama oleh dua orang yang berbeda walaupun kata katanya sama sekalipun.
Saya masih percaya semua yang saya berikan dahulu tak pernah bisa saya berikan lagi pada orang lain karena saya memberi yang saya punya waktu itu, dan sekarang apa yang saya punya saya berikan padanya.
Saya masih percaya saya tak akan pernah bisa mengusir kamu dari dalam diri saya dalam bentuk apapun itu, karena kamu sendiri yang menciptakan mantra itu saat dia datang ke hidup saya dan menawarkan cintanya dengan canda tawa.
Saya masih percaya setiap manusia berhak berbahagia walau dengan cara dan atas nama apapun termasuk Cinta dan dirinya sendiri, bahkan mungkin untuk diri saya sendiri yang tak pernah percaya kalau Bahagia itu memang ada.
Saya masih percaya kalau setiap kepercayaan saya atas hidup dan diri saya sendiri yang sudah kamu hancurkan saat saya memberikan semuanya kepada kamu dulu itu tetap tak ternilai harganya bahkan setelah semuanya yang terjadi antara kamu dan saya, dia dan kamu, saya dan dia, juga Cinta saya hari ini.
Saya masih percaya hidup adalah tentang memilih dan mengambil semua konsekuensi dari pilihan yang diambil manusia, bahkan saat pilihan itu sendiri yang ternyata menghancurkan diri mereka sendiri.
Saya masih percaya saya layak mendapatkan sebuah kejujuran atas semua kepercayaan saya atas manusia, hidup dan Tuhan saya sendiri. Karenanya saat kamu mengatasnamakan pengkhianatan kamu atas apapun itu, saya tidak pernah mau menerimanya hingga hari ini karena saya merasa saya layak dihormati atas kepercayaan saya akan rasa percaya dan cinta itu sendiri.
...Dan kalau memang saya diberi pilihan untuk menyayangi atau membenci kamu hingga saya mati, maka saya tidak memilih keduanya karena kamu tak pernah lagi ada dalam kehidupan saya sejak hari itu...
Kamu bukan masa lalu, masa sekarang dan semoga bukan masa depan saya.
Terimakasih untuk membuat Benci ini nyata:)
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume IV)
It's after 9 PM and I think I'm in love, deeply.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Stomache and Headache.
It's damn amazing that I could still walk,
talk, finished my work and also hang out
with Booby Boy till almost midnight yesterday.
We went to the movie, ate pizza and had her
pierce her left ear for the first time! Woohoo!
I told you that I'm such a bad influence! Hehehe!
But the stomache remains though it's not
as painful as yesterday, and with job to be
finished TODAY since I'm going away for
a week tomorrow...I'm still trying to hangin'
tough till today is over. Wish me luck ya!
Gal: If I may choose between having things
between us like today or broken up with you
after we finally being able to date..I prefer the
first one.
Guy: But how about if we never broke up?:)
(a late night sms conversation)
And why do I feel shit is going to happen soon since
lately things are going too well in my life?
Love you, God:)
It's damn amazing that I could still walk,
talk, finished my work and also hang out
with Booby Boy till almost midnight yesterday.
We went to the movie, ate pizza and had her
pierce her left ear for the first time! Woohoo!
I told you that I'm such a bad influence! Hehehe!
But the stomache remains though it's not
as painful as yesterday, and with job to be
finished TODAY since I'm going away for
a week tomorrow...I'm still trying to hangin'
tough till today is over. Wish me luck ya!
Gal: If I may choose between having things
between us like today or broken up with you
after we finally being able to date..I prefer the
first one.
Guy: But how about if we never broke up?:)
(a late night sms conversation)
And why do I feel shit is going to happen soon since
lately things are going too well in my life?
Love you, God:)
Monday, September 15, 2003
Cowok: Kurangin dong minum
kopinya,
Lambung kamu kan nggak kuat kalo banyak
Minum kopi...
Cewek: Tapi kamu nanti pacaran
ama orang lain?
Lalu buat apa saya udah ngurangin minum kopi
kalau kamu tetep pacaran sama cewek lain?
(I bet you smiling so big reading this nonsense conversation, right? Hehehe!)
Finally I decide to talk to him directly. Telling him that
being put in a position where I don't necessarily wanted to be put (which is his heart) has started to give me unnecessary burden and I hate that. I realized
that it's not his fault but I still prefer us to be in the same level of feelings before where we are just good friends. I mean, without telling me that I'm not in love with him in every single ending of our conversation is definitely too much lately and I refused to be there any longer. My apology too for being this harsh, Bulan:)
Have you ever wish for something called Loyalty?
I don't, I don't believe that. Honesty is much more powerful than a temporary loyalty and when especially it comes to Love, trust me...Love doesn't need loyalty as much as it doesn't need honesty.
Love come and go for love and nothing else, Baby!
Have you ever thank God for sending someone that doesn't believe in Him to your life?
kopinya,
Lambung kamu kan nggak kuat kalo banyak
Minum kopi...
Cewek: Tapi kamu nanti pacaran
ama orang lain?
Lalu buat apa saya udah ngurangin minum kopi
kalau kamu tetep pacaran sama cewek lain?
(I bet you smiling so big reading this nonsense conversation, right? Hehehe!)
Finally I decide to talk to him directly. Telling him that
being put in a position where I don't necessarily wanted to be put (which is his heart) has started to give me unnecessary burden and I hate that. I realized
that it's not his fault but I still prefer us to be in the same level of feelings before where we are just good friends. I mean, without telling me that I'm not in love with him in every single ending of our conversation is definitely too much lately and I refused to be there any longer. My apology too for being this harsh, Bulan:)
Have you ever wish for something called Loyalty?
I don't, I don't believe that. Honesty is much more powerful than a temporary loyalty and when especially it comes to Love, trust me...Love doesn't need loyalty as much as it doesn't need honesty.
Love come and go for love and nothing else, Baby!
Have you ever thank God for sending someone that doesn't believe in Him to your life?
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Subuh's prayer.
God, I haven't done that for ...
but this morning a sudden urge of
thirst in the middle of my sleep woke
me up exactly when Subuh's adzan
roar from the mosque. Nice!
So I got a bottle of ice water and
a glass, wudhu and pray before
going back to bed again. And I just
realize those time of hour were so
damn soothing! Thank you, God:)
I'm a rejection junky,
I learn my lesson from MTV,
maybe I got lucky...
I don't mind at all.-a song-
I have to turned him down though
I hate doing that to such a
wonderful and smart person like
him. My apology, Damai Bulan...
but I didn't feel right at all catching
your pain and sadness because I'm
not belongs to you from the first place.
Hangin' there, Beauty...
Had a pizza dinner with my twin that
telling me not to given up when I was
so crushed several months ago, and
hearing him telling me how madly in
love he is now...while telling him how
much we're in a similar situation made
me realized how nice my life is lately.
Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah!
'saya buka semua karena saya mau
kamu liat semua'
(a handwritten note in my organizer)
God, I haven't done that for ...
but this morning a sudden urge of
thirst in the middle of my sleep woke
me up exactly when Subuh's adzan
roar from the mosque. Nice!
So I got a bottle of ice water and
a glass, wudhu and pray before
going back to bed again. And I just
realize those time of hour were so
damn soothing! Thank you, God:)
I'm a rejection junky,
I learn my lesson from MTV,
maybe I got lucky...
I don't mind at all.-a song-
I have to turned him down though
I hate doing that to such a
wonderful and smart person like
him. My apology, Damai Bulan...
but I didn't feel right at all catching
your pain and sadness because I'm
not belongs to you from the first place.
Hangin' there, Beauty...
Had a pizza dinner with my twin that
telling me not to given up when I was
so crushed several months ago, and
hearing him telling me how madly in
love he is now...while telling him how
much we're in a similar situation made
me realized how nice my life is lately.
Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah!
'saya buka semua karena saya mau
kamu liat semua'
(a handwritten note in my organizer)
Exhaustion of body and mind.
It's been so hectic in my office lately that
I found myself couldn't barely talk in a decent
mood and mind with other people except
those who has been really, really close and
knowing me almost everyday now!
I almost not even bother to call Damai Bulan
back and I found it is much better to talk to him
via sms! Hehehee! God, that guy is so bloody
heavy! Heheheeh!
But I managed to do lots of things that I have to
finish this month including house-moving and that
media independent workshop next week! Yay!
Thank you so much for all these gifts, God;)
Wondering of whether someone outhere would
finally love me for my heart only?...
PS: Miss my Ra..so much!
It's been so hectic in my office lately that
I found myself couldn't barely talk in a decent
mood and mind with other people except
those who has been really, really close and
knowing me almost everyday now!
I almost not even bother to call Damai Bulan
back and I found it is much better to talk to him
via sms! Hehehee! God, that guy is so bloody
heavy! Heheheeh!
But I managed to do lots of things that I have to
finish this month including house-moving and that
media independent workshop next week! Yay!
Thank you so much for all these gifts, God;)
Wondering of whether someone outhere would
finally love me for my heart only?...
PS: Miss my Ra..so much!
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
Stop your whine
Feelin' swell
And I'm doin' fine
Yeah fuck your suicide
It's all bullshit 'cause I tried
And it really don't impress me all that much
Up yours
What you find
Sit right down
I got time
And you say here comes the end
And you haven't got a friend
And I'm standing here just screaming at the wall
Up yours
Stop your whine
Whatta ya got
I got mine
And you shake your stupid head
And you wish that you were dead
And I swear sometimes you're happier than me
And you know it's hard to be
All the things you want me to be
And you go and make it hard on me
But I swear that anything you could be I could be can't you see
Up yours
Got no mind
That's too bad
You got time
Yeah, fuck your silly game
'Cause it's driving me insane
And it really doesn't matter much to me
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume III)
Feelin' swell
And I'm doin' fine
Yeah fuck your suicide
It's all bullshit 'cause I tried
And it really don't impress me all that much
Up yours
What you find
Sit right down
I got time
And you say here comes the end
And you haven't got a friend
And I'm standing here just screaming at the wall
Up yours
Stop your whine
Whatta ya got
I got mine
And you shake your stupid head
And you wish that you were dead
And I swear sometimes you're happier than me
And you know it's hard to be
All the things you want me to be
And you go and make it hard on me
But I swear that anything you could be I could be can't you see
Up yours
Got no mind
That's too bad
You got time
Yeah, fuck your silly game
'Cause it's driving me insane
And it really doesn't matter much to me
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume III)
Short hair VS Long hair.
Since I cut my hair really short last March,
I start to realize that NOT MANY guys that
I love is also love to see me in short hair.
Even some new guyfriends that I have lately
though they never see in long hair before,
keep saying something like,'I wonder what
would you look like in long hair....' in the
middle of our chat.
What's with boys and long hair sih?!
It's just hair. It'll grow. It'll always grow
no matter how many times we cut them.
So maybe I'm just a bit annoyed by this
idea that gives me the impression that
long hair girl is better than short hair ones.
I've been in a really, really long black straight
hair for more than ten years before,
and trust me, it's like having a big boobs!
everyone loves it but you're the one who has
to taking care of it;)
Since I cut my hair really short last March,
I start to realize that NOT MANY guys that
I love is also love to see me in short hair.
Even some new guyfriends that I have lately
though they never see in long hair before,
keep saying something like,'I wonder what
would you look like in long hair....' in the
middle of our chat.
What's with boys and long hair sih?!
It's just hair. It'll grow. It'll always grow
no matter how many times we cut them.
So maybe I'm just a bit annoyed by this
idea that gives me the impression that
long hair girl is better than short hair ones.
I've been in a really, really long black straight
hair for more than ten years before,
and trust me, it's like having a big boobs!
everyone loves it but you're the one who has
to taking care of it;)
Saturday, September 06, 2003
My way of loving.
There has been a tremendous change in it
since in the beginning of this year, yet I still
seemed to believe in certain things about it
will never change no matter what happened.
Just because I said yes, that doesn't mean
there is no boundaries.
Just because I said no, that doesn't mean
it's a total restriction.
For I believe that there is no human could
own other human since they belong to
themselves and God only, love is about
celebrating life and not kill it.
And for you that has been redefining Love
to me since April..you know I love you, right?
(midday and cloudy Saturday)
There has been a tremendous change in it
since in the beginning of this year, yet I still
seemed to believe in certain things about it
will never change no matter what happened.
Just because I said yes, that doesn't mean
there is no boundaries.
Just because I said no, that doesn't mean
it's a total restriction.
For I believe that there is no human could
own other human since they belong to
themselves and God only, love is about
celebrating life and not kill it.
And for you that has been redefining Love
to me since April..you know I love you, right?
(midday and cloudy Saturday)
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
If I die tomorow, would you be sad?
and he shouldn't answered that question..
He's start to exhaust me, really. Not that I don't understand
his feelings and his position in my life but he should stop
acting like he is today. That act won't change anything
between us. I really wish I shouldn't have to tell him all
these...and if he's leaving me at the end, I think I'll be fine
since I have no right to judge his attitude towards me
anyway that mostly driven by love. In control towards Love?
Yeah, right!Hahaha!
Woke up yesterday morning with three main things to finish
within this week until the end of this month.Bloody fuckin'
busy month indeed and how I really wish I could have concentrate
more and stop following this two-bitches-in-me around! Hehehe!
Gemini, gemini, what a twisted soul creature you are!
Still not getting closer to God and my parents as much as I wanted to
lately, but I know that I should start doing something about them
as soon as I finish my own things lately. If only they could accept me
a little bit more than today, maybe I won't feel this distance and eerie
like this....Ffuih! A human must do what human must do I guessed:)
What is your favorite smell lately?
Mine is my lover's hair and shoulder;)
and he shouldn't answered that question..
He's start to exhaust me, really. Not that I don't understand
his feelings and his position in my life but he should stop
acting like he is today. That act won't change anything
between us. I really wish I shouldn't have to tell him all
these...and if he's leaving me at the end, I think I'll be fine
since I have no right to judge his attitude towards me
anyway that mostly driven by love. In control towards Love?
Yeah, right!Hahaha!
Woke up yesterday morning with three main things to finish
within this week until the end of this month.Bloody fuckin'
busy month indeed and how I really wish I could have concentrate
more and stop following this two-bitches-in-me around! Hehehe!
Gemini, gemini, what a twisted soul creature you are!
Still not getting closer to God and my parents as much as I wanted to
lately, but I know that I should start doing something about them
as soon as I finish my own things lately. If only they could accept me
a little bit more than today, maybe I won't feel this distance and eerie
like this....Ffuih! A human must do what human must do I guessed:)
What is your favorite smell lately?
Mine is my lover's hair and shoulder;)
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
P: Jikaku diberi istana diatas awan oleh Tuhan,
maukah kau tinggal bersamaku?
J: Namun hari ini aku punya sebuah sudut hangat
lembut dan rumah mungil di keramaian
sebuah jalan...
(a morning sms conversation)
Two black eyes, that's what I got from my
Cirebon trip last weekend with my band and
my boyf. Definitely exhausting and not as fun
as Iwe expected but I'm still glad that I went
there. Crashing at the coordinator houses for
two hours of sleep before queing for the shower.
Such a hot city and weird people yet pretty
friendly, this trip is definitely worth it! Hehehe!
Too many things happening in my life with such
a wonderful,wonderful surprises in between made
me really, really grateful to be alive and having
more strength to be on my own soon. It's funny
that the more you have your dreams come true,
the more you feel that I own nothing at the end.
This is all not mine, never been...and never will.
maukah kau tinggal bersamaku?
J: Namun hari ini aku punya sebuah sudut hangat
lembut dan rumah mungil di keramaian
sebuah jalan...
(a morning sms conversation)
Two black eyes, that's what I got from my
Cirebon trip last weekend with my band and
my boyf. Definitely exhausting and not as fun
as Iwe expected but I'm still glad that I went
there. Crashing at the coordinator houses for
two hours of sleep before queing for the shower.
Such a hot city and weird people yet pretty
friendly, this trip is definitely worth it! Hehehe!
Too many things happening in my life with such
a wonderful,wonderful surprises in between made
me really, really grateful to be alive and having
more strength to be on my own soon. It's funny
that the more you have your dreams come true,
the more you feel that I own nothing at the end.
This is all not mine, never been...and never will.
Monday, September 01, 2003
Dear you,
Love and Hate collide is definitely a perfect line
to describe you, before and today. I really wish
I could just come and asking why are you being
so mad lately...but I guessed those moments
were over now. Since I could barely trust you
anymore, and that's including when you said that
you don't believe in faith anymore:)
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume II)
Love and Hate collide is definitely a perfect line
to describe you, before and today. I really wish
I could just come and asking why are you being
so mad lately...but I guessed those moments
were over now. Since I could barely trust you
anymore, and that's including when you said that
you don't believe in faith anymore:)
(Confrontation with Vain, Volume II)
